It’s been a while since I shared something about my fit journey with you guys. Wasn’t there something worth sharing? Well, I guess there was but I was so busy running from one thing to the other that I didn’t really have the time to reflect on myself. The storm has settled and I start to see everything clear again. So what happened over the past few months?
In summer, I decided that I wanted to do something I was truly passionate about. I quit my job and devoted most of my time to #FITGIRLCODE and Jogha. Although I consider it to be one of the best decisions in my life, a lot of things changed. My boyfriend also got another job hence we had to deal with different schedules. Eating and working out separately , became more a rule than an exception. On top of that, we also bought our first home and we decided to get a dog. Although this was all pretty exciting, for me personally, it was a lot of change to wrap my mind around.
The result of all these changes was that there wasn’t much time left for exercising. Of course I tried to squeeze it in and dragged my butt to the gym, but I felt like I wasn’t making enough progress in the Fit Girl department anymore.
My head felt like exploding
Although my job was very fulfilling, I was a bit disappointed in myself. I just wanted to do it all right: have a career, be an awesome Fit Girl and have a rocking social life at the same time. It started to frustrate me that I wasn’t able to handle my situation well; unlike other people who didn’t seem to have the same problem. Sometimes at night, my head felt like exploding and I couldn’t sleep at all. When I thought about the situation I was in, I realized that it wasn’t the first time that I felt like this; so overwhelmed by everything that was happening in my life. It was a recurring thing, which was actually always there; sometimes it just felt more pressing than other times.
Diagnosed with ADHD
I decided to take matters into my own hands and did some research about my ‘mental state’. Through my mother, who is a psychotherapist, I stumbled upon ADHD. When I started reading about this ‘disorder’ I suddenly felt so much resemblance. Everything I struggled with my whole life suddenly fell into place. I got tested in a clinic specialized in ADHD, and yup at the end of the day I was diagnosed with ADHD. I felt pretty relived I have to admit, because if this wasn’t me why did I recognize so much?
Find the new me
I started to take medication, which was really hard in the beginning. But after a few weeks I can definitely tell that it really supports me in many ways. Something I have to deal with now, is to kinda find the new me. I used to give into temptations and impulses very easily, but because of the medication I oversee things better. I don’t really know yet, what decisions are the right ones to become a better, happier version of myself. I think I'll find that out in the long run. What I do know is that working out makes me feel awesome. That’s why it needs to get a more prominent place in my life again in 2015.
Find your superpower
I shared all this with you, because ADHD or not, sometimes it's a good thing to take a close look at your life. Are the things you do still making you happy? It doesn’t mean that if you do something a certain way for years, it the best way for you to do it. If you decide that it's time for change, don't expact it to happen over night. Habits die hard you know. For example: it took me years to gain, well uh a lot of weight. So it will take more than a few months to get rid of all this (emotional) baggage.
If you want to change more than one thing in your life, don’t force yourself to do it all at once. Don’t aim to be badass in every aspect of your life, but determine your focus.
We should all find our superpower and organize our life in such way, that we get the most out of it!